Monday 17 May 2010 "just a couple things to share."

girl,i'm sure you'll read this. if you don't,i'll force you to. lol. i just don't know what's the right things to say. for now. i just.. kinda mess without you.

sometimes i think of the better person that might be best for you. but i took it back. i always wanna be that person. the person that will be there for you. and the very 1st person that you find when you need someone or just a listener.

been a mess. indeed. i always thought if you still feel the same way i do. i love you. still. and always. that's what i know. i always thought if you still think of me. cause everyday i keep on thinking of you. i don't know what to do without you. i feel dead. emotionally dead.
or i shall say i'd rather be dead for real if i couldn't get you back.

it's killing me. and cuts like a knife. but i'm not gonna cry. i swear to God there won't be any tears falling from my eyes. i just wish to get her back into my life.

Tuesday 19 January 2010 "so i guess this is my motivation , for living :)"

heyyy siguling. i'm serious about this,alrite? :P
i really do love you. you have to know this
sorry for making fun. sometimes. or often. or always. haha :p
but i do really love you. promise promise i'll make us together for real :)

-sibodoh- (shit it sounds so weird hahaha :p but well since you gave that weird nick name,i'll take it. :P)

"whatever it takes :)"

Whatever It Takes - Lifehouse

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

Thursday 30 July 2009 "she's mine"

dont worry,robot. she won't leave us :) she'll stay :D
rite,dear? :)

Wednesday 29 July 2009 "the real biggest fear"

i should thank God when the dreams are made and feels like real. but it comes to a biggest fear when i dreamt about her asking for an end. it's been a scariest dream ever. it makes me wake up for suddenly and hardly thinking about it. yea it might sounds so gay but you wont say so if you feel what i feel. i just could not imagine how if that'll come to real life. wtf. now i'm started to be such a paranoid person. yet,i still the same person that protective to the one i love. i'm crossing my finger for not being far from her. i dont want for an end , for any reasons.

Saturday 11 July 2009 "is thinking.."

AAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i want to fly to Jakarta :( sigh*
Malang - Malaysia never felt this hard before. haha. lol. i think i never been so much in love like now. when i'm still with that gurl so called A****,i dont really mind LDR. when i'm with E also. i dont really wanna fly through and go there to her place. but why with Manda , i feel so different? haha. i think that's why some people stated me as 'playboy insaf' ==
ever since i'm taken by this gurl,i changed a lot. girls are no longer THAT interesting for me. flirting and cheating aren't my thang anymore. i guess she really influence me. a lot. haha :DD thanks,dear :p

i had a plan. *i never had a plan before. told ya,i changed. haha
i had a plan to fly to her place. when? errr. idk. haha. just wait for the right time. i need to settle up some trashes and rubbish things here in my place. damn it. can't wait to come there and finally can hug her :( and kiss her *if i may :p

so this is IT. now i'm still thinking..

Friday 10 July 2009 "5th of April"

f the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's destiny
The best things in life
They're free



But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do


If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you
I'll never hide

i still remember when the 1st time i called her "cc" . omg ==
when i remembered that moment back , i started to feel embarassed by myself.
never thought she will make me fall for her.
i still remember that time , i was dating another girl. but why did I feel that she should have been the one for me?
i broke anyone else's heart for no reasons,at first.
i said "no" for many people for no reasons,either.
but then i just realized that,this girl means a lot for me.
no,not that because she's one of my sister's bestfriend. not because of that.
this feeling is just more than that.
worth more than any feeling that i had ever felt.

stupid. or idiot me. i knew she would say "yes" when i asked her to be mine. (hahahhahah)
but why was i shivering much? lol.
i never felt that way before. no no. i dont lie. at all.
but just.. OMG. hahaha. i dont even able to find a word for this.
and at last , i just realized that this what people called as..
..LOVE?

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